Spiritual Reflections on Illness and Aging
The Unexpected Visitor
After avoiding the illness that changed the world, I finally experienced firsthand the effects of COVID-19 in my own body.
Following a deep croupy cough, I performed the ritual of testing which for over four years had always been negative.
On this particular Saturday, however, a telltale strip told me I had fallen prey to the bug.
I felt like ‘Typhoid Mary’ as I communicated with people I had been closest to that week.
While medications helped ease the symptoms, I found myself dealing with a profound fatigue that left me feeling as if my engine had run completely out of gas.
The Gift of Stillness
In this forced stillness, something unexpected happened.
The inability to maintain my usual pace created a space for deeper reflection – a gift I might have otherwise missed in the rush of daily life.
As I sat in my favorite chair, watching the play of sunlight through my window, I began to again understand how illness, while unwelcome, becomes a powerful teacher on my spiritual journey.
Learning Through Vulnerability
This experience reminded me of something I’ve observed throughout my years: my greatest spiritual insights often come not from moments of strength, but from periods of vulnerability.
When illness strips away my usual defenses and routines, I’m invited to explore the deeper questions of existence: Who am I when I can’t “do” anything? What remains when my physical capabilities are diminished?
The Power of Connection During Illness
I discovered how the web of connection becomes startlingly clear during times of illness.
As I reached out to warn others of potential exposure, I was touched by their concern and offers of help.
I found a profound spiritual lesson in accepting assistance – it reminded me that I don’t walk this path alone.
In our independent-minded culture, I found this illness humbling, showing me the beauty of interdependence and the grace of receiving care.
Awakening to Present Moments
I find illness brings me face-to-face with my mortality in ways I might prefer to avoid, especially as I age.
Yet I’ve discovered a strange peace that comes with acknowledging my vulnerability.
When I stop running from the reality of my finite nature, I often find myself more fully present in each moment I’m given.
During my isolation, I discovered this truth anew – I heard the quiet chime of my clock from four rooms away and watched my cat as he slept nearby, noticing the tiny twitches of his hind foot.
I could savor things I hadn’t seen or heard before this enforced stillness in my back bedroom.
Dancing with Multiple Illnesses
Physical limitations, whether temporary or permanent, can feel like losses – and they are. As someone who has lived with MS for decades, I thought I knew everything about adapting to illness.
HA! While I’ve made my peace with MS and we actually abide together reasonably well, welcoming something contagious and potentially deadly like COVID-19 felt entirely different than accepting I’m one of thousands with a glitch in my get-along.
Embracing Life’s Changes
Aging, like COVID-19, has brought me face-to-face with my own mortality.
While aging isn’t contagious, my experience with COVID-19 helped me understand something profound: Both experiences can ambush us with unexpected losses and limitations.
And while death itself isn’t contagious, I’ve noticed how my own fear of it can ripple out to others!
Yet, as I age and face illness, finding I can no longer do everything I once did, I’m discovering qualities I never knew I had: patience, acceptance, a deeper capacity for contemplation—and the joy of savoring things I ordinarily miss.
As my outer world sometimes grows smaller, I find my inner world expanding in unexpected ways.
Finding Hope in the Journey of Illness
I’ve learned that hope doesn’t require denial of my challenges.
Instead, my hope grows from facing them with honesty and courage.
Each time I meet physical challenges with spiritual awareness, I develop a resilience beyond mere endurance.
I’m learning to find joy, not despite my limitations, but because of how they’ve deepened my appreciation for life’s simple gifts.
Sharing Our Light in Illness
I believe that one of the most meaningful aspects of navigating illness with spiritual awareness is how my experience might help others.
When I face my challenges with grace and openness, I want to show others that it’s possible to find meaning even in difficulty.
In this way, my light continues to shine even though some days seem dark.
Walking Forward with Illness
My spiritual journey through illness and aging isn’t about reaching a destination of perfect acceptance. It’s about being present with whatever each day brings, finding meaning amid challenges, and remaining open to the lessons wrapped in unexpected packages.
As I continue on this path, I invite you to join me in exploring these challenges with spiritual awareness.
Here’s what helps me, and might help you too:
I’ve started what I call a “Wisdom Journal” where I record my reflections on experiences with illness or limitation.
I write about the spiritual insights my challenges have revealed and the unexpected gifts I’ve discovered in difficult times.
You might want to try this too.
I practice present-moment awareness. When physical challenges arise, I approach them with curiosity rather than resistance.
(Yes, sometimes this leads to learning new swear words!)
I remind myself daily that my journey through illness and aging isn’t just my own – it’s part of our shared human experience.
By approaching it with spiritual awareness and sharing our insights with each other, we create ripples of wisdom that extend far beyond ourselves.
Join Me on This Journey
We can transform our challenges into beacons of hope for others. Will you join me in this sacred work of finding and sharing the light in life’s shadows?
I’d love to hear your reflections and experiences in the comments below.
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Together, we can discover the profound gifts that come with life’s challenges.
If you want to read more check out these articles Spiritual Aging Beyond Doctor’s Visits and Reflections on Embracing Aging with Wisdom and Humor
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